你走后，我每一天都梦到你。

每一天都在想你。

每一次梦到你，我的心就变得好酸好痛。

看你在医院得样子，我们都哭了。

你知道吗？

以后，我们不能和你一起吃饭了。

不过，你再天上会根好！

你要抓住耶稣的手不放哦！

我们永远爱你！

外公<33

15 Sept08,

Monday,

03:20pm

lets have 1 min of silent.

Mr Kok Kim Koi Gong gong,went to the Lord.though we cant bear to let him go,but i know there's God's purpose.saw him went through the most difficult part,all our hearts were sour and we started to cry.

doc wanted to let him go.coz theres no point to continue and let him live.all the best medicine and machine they had used.but no point.he still cant live by himself.so no choice.have to except it.we acc grandpa till his last breathe.

so,his funeral last for 5 days.theres too much things behind which i cant reveal.so so,have to let our hearts settle first.

time to up-date grandpa's condition.
yest my friends acc me to TTSH to visit my grandpa during our 2hrs break.so had our lunch and went to SICU.den saw my small uncle.he was crying.at first,he did not face me.so i thought docs are checking on my grandpa.i was shocked when i saw him crying.i know something bad happen.

so he told me that grandpa's heart beat stopped.my heart beat fast and my finger turn cold.so went in and check his condition with docs.they say he have to undergo an operation.to put a quite thick tube into his tight,and than push all the way to his heart.something like balloon.

so that this balloon can last him for sometime.but only 50 50%.coz if we dont put,he will die coz his heart beat already stopped.doc recommand this because my grandpa still have a clear mind.so dont wanna let him go.

so we called our relatives to inform them.so wait till 3+ i went home.den late evening visit him again.but his comdition now ia not really good.quite bad.all of us pray that if it is God's will,bring him back with Jesus.if not,let him recover with no pain.

what jie said was right!
i nearly puke when he acted infront of me.
just infront.REALLY ER XIN!!!

when he first heard grandpa suffer from cologen cancer,did nt even ask how is he or wat...the only thing he said was,if he wants to die,quickly go and die.it juz like wth is this?!so so so angry wen mummy told me about this!he was so doted by grandpa.because he is the first son.my grandpa is a traditional man.

but when he was send to ther hospital for colon surgery,there goes his acting!keep calling jie to asked whether is she going down to hos to visit grandpa a not.lol!ppl go down is to visit paitent!not jie!!!keep calling till jie dun wan to pick up his call.sickening!GRR!

bring the lao yao jing and their neigbour oso.act till wan to let other ppl to know how fillial he is.Eee...in the bedroom,actor called grandpa.but no respond from him.haha.sp happy.BUT,BUT,when my small uncle called him,he responded!HAHAHA:)

think the lao yao jing ps.so told actor to stand beside small uncle.maybe he will respond.call again.no respond!hohoho...so happy.i told jie and mummy.they oso very happy.kept laughing.

now,we are waiting for another 2 expisode.hahaha.we aer like waiting for the show to begin.looking forward what he will act again:)

im back!
everybody must be very concern about my grandpa.
thanks!
he went for an 2nd operation already.

this morn went to visit him already.i heard doc said he is now quite stable.
thank God for that!when i visited him this morn,i bu xiao xin touch his hand.
he hold my hand!and squeeze my hand.he said my hand is so cold.

of coz cold!
coz in ICU ma....
it must be very very cold to kill germs:)

he is soO cute!
looked like a Popye:)
hee.
will update more about his condition.
thanks:)