DONT KNOW WHAT'S WRONG WITH ME.FEEL LIKE GIVING UP EVERYTHING AND GO FOR MY DREAM.FEEL SO TIRED.BUT I KNOW THIS IS IMPOSSIBLE.FEEL SO WRONG.AND IM SO LOST.BUT HOPE MY DREAM WILL COME TRUE 1 DAY.BUT NOT VERY FAR FROM ME NOW.

MAYBE IM SO INPAITIENT.I WANT THINGS STRAIGHT AFTER I PRAY TO GOD.BUT I KNOW GOD WANTS ME TO BE MORE PAITIENT.I KNOW.BUT I CANT WAIT!I WANT IT NOW.I DONT WANT TO SURRENDER EVEN I CANT.

AM I DOING THE RIGHT THING TO HAVE THIS TYPE OF THING?I DONT KNOW.BUT I WANT IT.IM NOT GOING TO GIVE UP!GOD,PLEASE SHOW ME.SHOW ME YOUR WILL.BUT I HOPE YOUR WILL IS WHAT I WANT.THOUGH I KNOW ITS WRONG TO SAY THIS.

I WANT IT BEFORE I TURN 20.MAYBE YOU HAVE ALREADY SHOW ME,BUT I DIDNT SEE IT.PLEASE REVEAL IT TO ME GOD!AND GIVE ME MORE ENERGY AND YOUR POWER TO CARRY ON.